Hawkeye X Reader- Chapter 42 the Explanation

Tony Stark blinked and then blinked some more. It felt as if he had a serious hangover, and he had no idea where he was. On a normal day this wouldn’t have alarmed him, he was used to this sort of thing by now. But today was certainly not a normal day. He recalled the crowds of people running for their lives as friends attacked friends and parents attacked children. They were mindless, practically zombies ordered by a computer program to attack anyone or thing that was resisting the disease. He rubbed his eyes with the heels of his hand. He had awoken 20 minutes ago to find his Ironman suit completely disabled. The cell he had found himself in was illuminated by a strong white light that burnt his eyes and frazzled his usually fast mind. If he squinted he was just able to see into the cell across from his, and the figure of Steve Rogers sitting on his haunches. Steve looked just as confused and powerless as Tony felt. Whoever had done this to them knew enough about the Avengers to know exactly what would work to detain each one. Tony shook his head shakily getting to his feet. There had to be a way to escape this cell, after all he had escaped a terrorist camp with less knowledge then he had now.

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You stared at your father, unable to comprehend the fact that he was the bad guy. Ever since you had been told he was dead you had dedicated every one of your achievements to him. The whole reason you had become the person you were today was because of him. But everything had been a lie.
He glanced at Steel. “I think my daughter and I need some time to catch up.”
Straightening himself up Steele dipped his head. “Yes Sir.”
“Oh, and Andrew?” Your father spoke calmly, as if addressing a close friend.
Steele halted midstride. “Sir?”
“I suggest you never try and make a move on my daughter ever again, unless of course you like the thought of being skinned alive.”
Steel’s eyes widened. “N-no Sir of course not.” You watched as he scuttled out of the room tail between his legs.

“Stand up _____, you’re not a hostage.”
You remained on your knees despite your father’s orders, blinking up at him mouth ajar.
He sighed. “Don’t make me drag you to your feet, I don’t want that to be the way we start off.”
“How do you expect us to start out, me throwing myself into your arms and telling you how much I’ve missed you?” You tried to keep your voice steady. “I’m sorry to tell you daddy dear but that ship has sailed.”
He clenched his jaw. “This is your last chance. Get, on, your, feet.”
You decided it’d be best to do what he says, for now anyway. So you stood slowly, glaring at him the entire time.
The corner of his mouth turned up. “Thankyou chipmunk, I know it’s difficult for you at the moment but if you give me a chance to explain you’ll understand.”
“I don’t think there is anything to understand. You’ve killed millions of people dad, you not only sat back and watched me being tortured but you broke my cheekbone and busted my nose yourself,” You sniffed back tears. “And you’ve done god knows what to the first boyfriend I’ve ever actually cared about.”
His mouth became a thin line as he listened to you. “_______, you need to realize the world isn’t all black and white, there is no definite good and bad.”
You scoffed. “I think the time for life lessons is over, if you want to explain your point of view to me than do it.”  
“I’m doing this for you, for every child out there like you.” He sounded almost sincere.
You scoffed. “Killing all of my friends is the best thing anyone has ever done for me thankyou Dad.”
He gritted his teeth. “_______, do you not realize that Nick Fury used you as another one of his test subjects?”
“All thanks to you.” You replied.
He gave a brief nod. “You’re right, that was my fault as much as it was his. But I can’t let him do it to anyone else.”
“So everything you’ve done is to stop S.H.I.E.L.D? All those people out there dying they’re-“
“Collateral damage, in a war innocents have to die to make a statement.” He spoke as if it was simple to understand.

You stared at him in disbelief, how had a man intent on the protection of innocents change so much?
“Do you want to know how I managed it?” A slight smile came across his face.
You didn’t reply, which he unfortunately took as an invitation to begin.
“I was sent on a solo mission to stop a secret medical facility in Brazil from producing and testing dangerous diseases. I went with every intention of stopping them and coming back to you and your mother the next day. But when I was there a scientist fearing for his life showed me a new disease he had begun working on. It had the ability to turn its victim into a zombie capable of following simple orders. I had been beginning to grow tired of Fury’s methods and trying to find a way to stop him from creating such dangerous tech, and agents. It all seemed to come together right then and there, I made a deal with the scientist. He would continue to produce the disease and morph it into something much stronger and I would take over management of the facility and make him head of his department. A greedy man, he was more than happy with me. So I kept to my word and unsurprisingly after no word from me Fury automatically assumed I had been killed. He sent many agents to infiltrate the facility but of course I was always one step ahead of him and instantly knew who they were. I encouraged my staff to feed them false information, which I know they had passed on to Fury. It continued on like that for a few years, sometimes I would recognize an agent and bribe them into joining me which just increased my numbers.”

You shook your head, looking down at your feet. “And you never once worried about me or mum?”
He smiled. “Of course I did, but I already knew I would be seeing you once you had graduated. And I was right, Fury played straight into my hand.”
“What?” You looked up.
“I had double agents at S.H.I.E.L.D, the moment you made an appearance I began to get things ready. I disposed of Agents Cross and just waited for Fury to test out his little project. I tried to make everything as difficult as I could, while still making it impossible for you to fail your task of collecting the vials. I needed to get the vials somewhere I could release them to do the most damage and that just happened to be the Helicarrier.”
You blinked, body shaking. “B-but I was tortured, I almost died…”
He nodded. “I was monitoring your progress the entire time, when it looked like you were about to crash I sent two of my employees to try and help you.”
“You mean I wasn’t seeing things?”
He laughed. “No, they were really there. But I had to concoct a scene that made it look like you got there on your own. The others couldn’t suspect a thing.”
“Wow.” You blinked. As disgusted as you were in your father you couldn’t help but admit that he had a pretty sharp mind.
“The one thing I didn’t count on was you falling for your S.O,” His brow furrowed. “When I was told that little detail I was a little surprised. Barton is not the sort of guy I ever saw you having any interest in.”
“What?” You tilted your head. “He’s a better man than you are.”
Your father chuckled under his breath. “I bet that’s what he has you believing, I was the agent tasked with bringing him to S.H.I.E.L.D _______, that man is a maniac.”
You nodded. “That may be true, but it does take one to know one.”
He shrugged. “I’m sorry that you feel that way. But I’m past caring what people think, even you. I love you but this is so much bigger and more important than that. I was hoping you’d decide to join me.”
“Go to hell.” You screamed at the top of your lungs.
He bared his teeth, punching you square in the jaw and sending you to your knees. “Keep your mouth shut.”
Tears cascaded down your cheeks as you looked up at the man you had once thought would be incapable of hurting you. Clutching your aching jaw you marveled at the fact that your heart was giving you far more grief. So this was what it was like to have your heart completely shattered.